anyways, i went home last weekend... actually i went to the football game in seattle on saturday and was home for sunday and half of monday... but i got to hang out with jared all day which was VERY nice :) and he ended up staying the night, his parents knew about it and i basically told mom at about 2 in the morning... yeah, so mom didn't care but my dad freaked out... we didn't do anything, we both want to wait... yeah. but my dad is my dad and yeah. Heck, with as much as my family is awake and wandering the house at night there is no way we could have had sex on the family room floor... it just wouldn't have worked.

Oh, yeah, and i think that he got me sick, 'cause he was sick when i saw him on sunday and monday night i got sick, didn't go to class yesterday and i'm still feeling miserable today but had to go to class anyways... and i have to write up a paper for my other class that was due yesterday... blar, i've been here for less than three weeks and i'm already behind... :(

but there might be a way that jared can visit next weekend :) if his parents don't mind him missing a day of school... i don't know if they'll go for that... basically, Echo is coming to visit derek and she needs to sleep in my room ('cause i have an extra bed and all) and i was figuring that if she was coming, she might as well bring jared along... the same goes for the next time that milo visits... so now that i think about it, it will be possible for me and jared to see each other, it's not like we have to get on a plane, it's just a ride issue, and with this many people here theres bound to be someone from home coming to visit (or vice versa). Yeah.

So i have to do laundry in the morning, which means buying laundry soap... i htink i'll probably get up at ten, work on the paper while my clothes are washing/drying, i figure that no one'll be down there 'cause they'll all be in class, and wait for jared to call me back so i can see about him coming to see me... i miss him so much

oh... and i never wrote in here that he told me that he loved me the night before i left... and i just stood there and looked at him... i couldn't say it back, because i wasn't sure... and he did it again on the phone a couple of times during those two weeks that we talked on the phone a lot... but i actually said it back to him on monday, and i truly feel that way... i don't remember life without him, it's that bad... yes, i'm pathetic, and long-distance relationships suck... a lot

oh, and i talked to nathan... he said that he didn't say "lost cause" just that he'd said "lost"... i don't know if i believe him, but saying lost is a lot better than lost cause because i don't think i could be friends with a person who would give up on another person, especially a friend, that easily... anyways, here's what he said about me and jared:

Julianne says:

so anyways...

/. Nathan says:

So, miss Jared yet?

Julianne says:

like crazy actually, and i saw him yesterday

Julianne says:

you think it's funny, dont you?

/. Nathan says:

I've seen it comeing for years

Julianne says:

lol, really? how so?

/. Nathan says:

I just think its funny that you think I would be hurt. Jared is a great guy, I would only be hurt if you got involved with a jerk.

Julianne says:

lol

Julianne says:

what made you think that id think you'd be hurt?

/. Nathan says:

Humm, maybe that IM conversation that we had a week ago

Julianne says:

okay, yeah

Julianne says:

i just wanted to know if your mom told you

Julianne says:

'cause i don't know how your mom or sister would have put it...

Julianne says:

how could you have seen it coming for years?

/. Nathan says:

No, she didn't

/. Nathan says:

like I said, I've seen it comeing for a long time

/. Nathan says:

and Rosemary told me

/. Nathan says:

she also told me about Scott . . .

Julianne says:

back to the "seen it coming".... what the?

/. Nathan says:

I've been expecting that if Julia and Jared weren't together that you and Jared would . . . after all, your both a few bricks short

/. Nathan says:

why I thought that . . . I dunno, I just did

yeah... how could he have seen it coming if no one else did? i didn't see it coming, jared didn't see it coming, julia didn't... why is he the magic part of the brain that sees stuff like that? i think he's making stuff up... or looking back and saying, "wow, they did flirt a lot... didn't they?" when in reality (and he knows it) both of us are flirts... especially with friends that we trust, if that makes any sense...

wow, this was a long entry... i guess i had to write about a lot since i haven't updated in a week...

heh, i guess i'll see ya next week!

no, i'll try and update more often than that... i still read diaryland everyday, it's just the writing that's hard...

later!

<>< Julianne

bye bye diaryland - Monday, Nov. 08, 2004
shit - Wednesday, Nov. 03, 2004
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