long story about creation
Tuesday, Sept. 09, 2003 -- 12:34 PM

I'm always lonely after i talk to him. I hate that he has that effect on me... but i'm absolutly head over heels in love with him... i still don't understand what happened that week... i don't know why i started flirting with him and meaning it. I don't know if i've said anything here about this, but i always flirt with my male friends, i don't mean anything, i just flirt because that's my personallity, most of them know that i'm not serious and they do the same thing back to me, not meaning it... just goofing around and being strange and just flirting, it's how we all act... i think it's really just a teenager thing 'cause yeah. but anyways, at creation this summer when i was around him... i still flirted, but it was different 'cause i actually meant it when i'd say stuff or touch... or poke ;) and i always used to put my head on a guys shoulder when i was in a car with them and tired... but i think i just wanted to be close to him then... and he put his arm around me, at first i thought that he was just playing like normal (thats why i didn't really respond like i wanted to...) and then all day friday... i wanted him to hold my hand, that's why i kept putting it in convienient places... it should have been easy for him... but he didn't... and then i guess technically i did grab his hand first, but it was in the car and he had his arm around me and... yeah... and that night when he grabbed my hand and we were sitting there looking at the trees and the stars and then we turned... i wasn't planning anything... but hey ;) i didn't mind so much, spending three and a half hours (and then when we woke up that morning) making out wasn't bad... but i really didn't know what was going to happen... and now, over a month (and a half?) later I find myself at college... 3 and a half hours from him, and i've discovered that i miss him more than i ever thought that i could... i always told myself that i wouldn't ever miss a guy this much... and it took six and a half years to get to this point... and now after a month and a half i feel like i can't even remember life before that night at creation when he grabbed my hand and kissed me... I love him so much, and i miss him so much... it sucks so much it's not even funny... it's not fair, but who said life was fair?

but i have to go downstairs and print something... which sucks, i want a printer in my room.

Reliant K is in my computer... they do rock :)

well, off to print, see ya'll later!

I'm working on a new layout, so we'll see what happens...

<>< Julianne

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I'm Julianne, about 5'2, brown hair/eyes and going to Washington State University. I'm home for the summer right now and going absolutely crazy.

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Closed minds, people who don't trust me, stupid people who like to be stupid a lot. Ignorant people, long distances.

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"Anyone who is capable of getting themselves made President should on no account be allowed to do the job."
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"It is the mark of an educated mind to be able to entertain a thought without accepting it."
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"We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence then, is not an act, but a habit."
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