I see:my room I need: to send my teacher that paper I find: uh… I want: jared to be here…. I have: a cough drop I wish: that jared was here… I love: my friends, my family,my boyfriend. I hate: stupid people, people with egos, cold weather I miss: my friends, jared I fear: loneliness I feel: tired I hear: Benjamin gate. I smell: air? I crave: caffine I search: for random stuff I wonder: when jared’ll call… I regret: regret is a waste of time, life happens and is over… When was the last time you ... Smiled?: today Laughed?: today Cried?: when I woke up this morning… I had a strange dream Bought something?: cough drops after lunch Danced?: when I was goofing off earlier today Were sarcastic?: not ever.. nope Kissed someone?: jared, two weeks ago… Talked to an ex?: I talked to Nathan this morning Watched your favorite movie?: hmm… I donno…. Had a nightmare?: I don’t seem to have nightmareds, but I had a strange dream this morning before I woke up A Last time for everything... Last book you read: I’m currently reading the wheel of time series… Last movie you saw: pirates of the carribean, amy has I on her computer J Last song you heard: Benjamin gate- halo Last time you showered: this morning Last thing you ate: chicken strips, chicken noodle soup and ice cream for dinner Do You... Smoke?: Nope Do drugs?: nope Have sex??: I am a virgin… Sleep with stuffed animals?: yes Live in the moment?: sure... Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: yes J Have a dream that keeps coming back?: nope Play an instrument?: trumpet Believe there is life on other planets?: probably Remember your first love?: yes Still love him/her?: in a way Read the newspaper?: when I feel like it Have any gay or lesbian friends?: yes Believe in miracles?: yes Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: yes Consider yourself tolerant of others?: usually… Consider love a mistake?: nope Like the taste of alcohol?: nope Have a favorite candy?: hmm… sugar… Believe in astrology?: I find it amusing, but not accurate Believe in magic?: I believe in miracles… if that’s magic… Believe in God?: yes Pray?: daily Go to church?: I used to three times a week (at least) but it’s hard to here Have any secrets?: yes Have any pets: yes Do well in school?: kinda.. average Go to or plan to go to college?: yes Have a major?: undecided, probably history at this point, maybe language arts Talk to strangers who instant message you?: Yeah Wear hats?: yes Have any piercings?: my ears Have any tattoos?: I want a fish ( <>< ) on my ankle, but I need $$ before I can get it Hate yourself?: sometimes Have an obsession? LOTR? SW? perhaps… I’d like to say God though J Have a secret crush?: not so secret considering I’m datng him Do they know yet?:  well, yeah… Collect anything?: Yeah Have a best friend?: I have several really close friends that I could consider my best friends Wish on stars?: not really, I watch meteor showers though ;) Like your handwriting?: I have guy handwriting, and trumpet player handwriting Have any bad habits?: yeah Care about looks?: depends… Boy/girlfriend's looks?: my guy is mine, he’s sexy…. But that’s not important… Believe in witches? no Believe in Satan?: yes Believe in ghosts?: Yes ---------What If-------------- 1. What would you do if you had an 18 wheeler?: drive home and kidnap jared 2. If you could go ONE place RIGHT now where would you go?: to see jared 3. If you could beat the crap outta one person who would it be?: Dubyah 4. If you were a pro wrestler...?: uh, I’’d be a pro wrestler 5. Describe your perfect lover: tall, muscular, but not too muscular, great personality… eyes I can get lost in… someone I can sit with for hours and never say a word btu feel that connection and know exactly how I want the rest of my life to feel 6. What would you really do with a million bucks?: buy stuff, pay for school 8. Say there's a Supreme Being (aka God, or whatever else you believe in) the point of this question is? 10. If you could say one thing to your parents without any consequences...what would you say?: I don’t know…. 11. If you knew you only had 24 hours to live..what would you do?: I have no idea 12. Hypothetical Situation: Your parents are away for the week, and it's saturday night.. (Honestly now): well… I don’ t think that’s realy anyones business… ;) 13. What super hero would you want to be more than any others (Ok if it's an original you've come up with on your own...feel free to share): heck, I donno 14. By chance, Death shows up at your doorstep. Only he made a mistake and it's not your time to go. He's about to leave..but first he turns around and asks you if you want to know when and how you're going do die... Do you hear him out or slam the door in his face?: I probably wouldn’t want to know because I’d be watching out for that day and situation for the rest of my life… of course, it would be nice to kno how and that I’m basically safe until then so I can live my life however I want… 15. Say you could read ONE person's mind for a day. Who would you choose and why?: God… that way I would know what he really wanted from me… 16. If you had ten minutes of invisibility (think Smash Brothers): not sure ------On your past--------- 1. Have you ever gotten arrested for anything? nope 2. What do you regret more than anything? Regret is pointless, I’ve already said that. 3. If you could change ONE thing about your middle school years what would it be? Middle school in general 4. One thing about high school? If I could have been friends with the people I was friends with my junior and senior years the whole time… I miss them all like crazy *hugs to all my buds back home* 5. Have you ever had one of those "happiest moments" or "life changing epiphanies"? all I can think of is that night at creation… 6. What was the best present you ever got?: not sure 7. What was the worst present you ever got?: not sure 8. Worst class ever?: two words: Miss Leighman 9. Worst grade ever? F, see above for explaination 10. What's the funniest thing that ever happened in your presence?: band geeks in general 11. What was your stupidest moment ever...and why were you such a moron? Um, I just am a moron… 12. Did you ever watch the Power Rangers? Heh, no. 13. Did you ever want to BE a Power Ranger (We'll know if you're lying...)? heh, no… 14. Barney? Uh, no… 15. Did you have any imaginary friends? no 16. Did you have any REAL friends? The defination of a real friend being someone who would do anything for you…. Yes, I think I do have real friends… 17. Would you rather play with a Barbie or burn it's hair off? i always dressed my barbies and never played with them 18. Did you always get up around 5 am for Christmas and annoy the FUCK out of your parents (and older siblings if you had any)? Lol yes 19. What Saturday morning cartoons did you watch? The teenage shows on nbc… 20. Would you go back to your childhood if you could? I think I might go back to my senior year in high school… I miss everyone ----What's your favorite----- 1. Kama Sutra position? Um? 2. Sex (as in male or female)? Males 3. Simpsons character? Donno… 4. Song lyric? Switchfoot’s “meant to live” 5. Part of the body? eyes 6. Saturday morning cartoon? *shrug* 7. Time of the day? Night/afternoon 8. Book? I have a million…  9. Christian Bible story? The book of ruth 10. Part of the Torah? eh? 11. Major world philosophy? ? 12. Confused yet? YES! 13. Type of pen? gel 14. Videogame? Age of Kings 15. Videogame system? Computer 16. Ninja Turtle? Uh… the purple one? 17. Vacation? Home to visit my friends and jared 18. Spiderman Villian? the green goblin...not really but that is the only one i can think of right now. 19. All-time villian? Hard, Darth Vader J 20. Fav Comical sidekick? Hmm… 21. Type of dog? Malamute/Husky/wolf… 22. Type of candy? Mmm… sugar…. -------Back to the Future--------- 1. If money weren't an issue...what would you REALLY wanna be? a teacher 2. Where do you want to go to college? I’m at college, WSU, GO COUGS! pac 10 baby! 3. Kids or no kids? kids, eventually. 4. Pet? Lots of pets… but defiantly rats 5. Will you be doing the cooking? Lol, if everyone doesn’t mind that its BURNT 6. Wall paper or tile for your house? Paint? 7. Do you want a house or an apartment? a house.. 8. Where would you live...if you didn't have to worry about affording the house and all the taxes?: Hawaii 9. Will you be going to Disney World at the age of 80 like those random people on the commercials? Sure, why not? 10. Do you plan on becoming a senile old person, one of those cool but crazy old people...or a bitter old hag? I want to be the crazy lady with all the cats, except I’d have rats -----Random-------- 1. Why did they really cancel Mash? The show lasted longer than the war ever did… that’s why 2. Bite me hard, bitch? uh 3. Gecko or Geiko? Gecko.. 4. What are you REALLY thinking about during class time? Random things… sleep 5. Hot dog, corn dog, veggie dog or yippy dog? hot dog..whats a yippy dog..? a real dog? 6. What's up with the Green and Purple ketchup?! Just a little strange 7. What's love? got to do got to do with it?... everything 8. Say Carnegie right? ..uh… 9. Do you have a thing for Marines? ? 10. 2 minute woman or 5 minute man? Uh.. 11. Top or bottom? Well, isn’t that a little… either or 12. Lights on or off? does it matter? 13. Do you have a tendancy to crack? Uh? 14. Do you like songs for the lyrics or just the beat? lyrics 17. Were you born with or without morals? Uh? 18. Who's your Daddy? My father? 19. Who's God? God is God… 20. Country music? My sis listens to it and I am therefore exposed to it far to often 21. Eminem or M and Ms? Candy better 22. Milk or milf? Huh? 23. How many questions were actually ON this survey? A lot 24. Did you enjoy them? *shrug* 25. What were YOU doing last night? Sleeping? 26. Are you a kinky person? Jared says I’m erotic… but I’m a virgin so… I donno 27. Are you a pure person? I like to think so 28. If yes to 27... then are you are liar? I donno 29. Dolphin Safe Tuna or Dolphin Meat? I don’t eat tuna 30. Why are you here? Why is anyone here? What does your name mean? Youthful How old are you? 18 How old are you mentally (as in are you mature?)? it depends on the situation Describe yourself in 5 words. Um, I’’m not sure that’s possible What are your worst qualities? When I’m tired I get REALLY cranky What are your best qualities? Friendships are really important to me How long does it take you get get ready in the morning? About as long as I have ~SLEEP~ Do you dream at night? Yes Do you remember your dreams? rarely Describe one. Uh… I can’t think of one now What time do you go to bed usually? Depends, whenever I feel like it What time do you wake up normally? 7:30 on mwf and whenever the rest of the time What time do you wake on weekends? 8-noon Do you find waking late nice or annoying? a little of both worlds do you sleep with one pillow or two? try 4 ~SCHOOL~ Do you like school? sometimes Why/why not? It all depends, I like school but I think I’m gonna get tired of living here Whats ur fave subject? Band. duh Most hated subject? math Do you have a fave teacher? I miss rees L Ever had a crush ona teacher? no Are you a maths/science person or an english/drama person? English/history actually ~FRIENDS~ Do you have heaps of friends? I feel like it Do you have a best friend? I have a lot of “best friends” Do you have more guy friends or more girl friends? A bit of both Do you ever get annoyed at any friend? Yeah Have you ever lied to a friend? nothing big Have you ever stolen a friends boyfriend/girlfriend? Well, no. but my boyfriend used to be on of my best friend’s boyfriends, but they hadn’t been together in years… ~FAMILY~ Do you like your parents? usually Ever run away from home? no Ever thought about it? yes Do you have any siblings? yah If not, do you mind being an only child? Do you feel your parents spoil you? Kinda, they really would if they could. Do you not get along with any of your family? It depends Do you have big family get togethers ever? Holidays and special events, sometimes for no apparent reason and then I have to go L ~RELATIONSHIPS~ Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? yep If so, are you in love with them? very much so Do they love you? yep How long have you been together? *counts on fingers* uh, a month and a half… but we’ve known each other for 6.5 years Most romantic thing they've ever done for you? Called me for four minutes from lunch when the bell was about to ring… it doesn’t SOUND romantic, but it kinda is… he hasn’t really had the opportunity, considering that he currently lives 4 hours away L Do you have a crush? On my guy I guess If so, are you in love? Yes (we’ve been over this) Do they know you like them? uh, yeah Is it serious or playful? Serious and playful How long have you liked them? that’s a hard one… Ever done something stupid to impress them? heh, cartwheel? ;) j/k ~Sex~ Ever had sex? no Do you believe that a person shouldn't have sex before marriage? No sex w/o marriage…. Believe in casual sex? No… you can’t have sex w/o emotion and casual sex just screws everything up When do you plan/when did you lose your virginity? My wedding night Did you regret it? N/a ~Religion~ Do you have a religion? I believe in God, I believe the Jesus Christ died for my sins so that I can be free Do you practice it i.e go to church? As often as I can Do you believe in God? yes Jesus? yes Satan? yes Heaven? yes Hell? yes If you died tomorrow what do you beleive will happen to you? I could be with God for eternity ~Morals~ Have you ever been drunk? no taken drugs? no stolen? yes shoplifted? Isn't that the same as stealing? Yes... tried to commit suicide? no Lied to a boyfriend or girlfriend? Not seriously gotten into a fight? Yes are you more innocent or guilty? Hmm… it depends… Would you date a drug addict? Someone who had decided to get off it, yes, someone who was still addicted? no have you ever had to look after someone who was a drug addict? no Are you racist? no Are you discriminatory to anyone? I try not to Have you been a hypocrite in the past? yeah Do you have an open or closed mind to other peoples beliefs and feelings? I try to be open ~Media~ Do you watch tons of tv? Don’t currently have a tv How many times have you been to the movies in the past 6 months? Heck, a million and four Do you listen to the radio often? Not really Do you read the newspaper? Only if thers one sitting there looking lonely Do you read magazines? nope Are you a couch potato? more like bed potato or computer chair potato... ~Music~ Whats your fave style of music? Christian, I’ll listen to anything with good lyrics, but some stuff is a little hard… Do you play an instrument? Trumpet… 8 years baby! Do you sing? Heh, not that anyone would want to listen to Whats your fave band? The Supertones and Switchfoot Name 3 cds that youve bought in that last year. I get my music from other people/internet ~Sport~ Whats your fave sport? I’m not a big sports fan Whats your fave sport to watch? Basketball, and football now… “I’m with the band” Do you play a lot of sport? Heck no, unless you count band, video games, or the fair ever won anything for sport? Well, if you count band and the fair… ~perosnality~ Are you funny or serious? Both Creative or not? Creative Logical thinker or lateral thinker? Both Are you outgoing or shy? depends Are you lazy or active? Usually lazy, but it depends Have you ever been hyperactive? yes Are you a naturally hyperactive person? basically ~Looks~ Are you happy with the way you look? I’m comfortable Do you wear makeup regularly? Nope, never actually Do you have a large wardrobe? I guess… and it’s all on the floor ~Money~ Do you have a job? I will soon Do you like it? Are you a saver or a spender? both Do you work hard or slack off? both Have you ever been fired? no In trouble at work? Made a major mistake? Ever had money stolen from you? yea Are you always broke? basically ~embarassing moments~ Your all time most embarassing moment? Don't remember Ever snorted drink out your nose? Yep, Kristi made a funny noise in jr. high and I couldn’t help it Ever giggled like an idiot? yep Ever embarassed yourself and pretedned nothing happened? Yes Ever tripped in front of someone you liked? Lol, all the time….(cartwheel?) Ever said soemthing really stupid? everytime i open my mouth Ever snorted while laughing? Yep, usually on pupose Ever fallen off a bed? yes.. Ever sleepwalked? No Ever sleeptalked? Yes ~Memories~ Whats your best memory? A milion Worst? i dunno Whats the wierdest memory you have? Probably has something to do with band ;) Do you have a good memory? It depends, I remember things that other people forget… ~Thoughts~ Ever had funny thoughts and laughed and no one understood you? yea Whats the first thoughts that come to your head while hearing these words?:: cheese: moo? rubber: Mattia clothes: pjs big: small? dress: I don’t wanna wear a dress jacket: leather polyester: 70’s kite: tree washing: maching [ current clothes ] pjs, t-shirt [ current mood ] tiredish [ current music ] Switchfoot [ current taste ] diet pepsi [ current make-up ] none [ current hair ] down and annoying [ current annoyance ] that rash on my tummy… [ current smell ] air? [ current thing I ought to be doing ] paper [ current desktop picture ] trumpet [ current favorite group ] Switchfoot [ current book you're reading ] The Wheel of Time series [ current cd in cd player ] Switchfoot [ current movie in DVD ] no dvd [ current color of toenails ] lt blue [ current refreshment ] diet pepsi [ current worry ] paper Last person.... [ you touched ] Ashley probably [ you talked to ] amy on im [ you hugged ] either Ashley or leslie [ you instant messaged ] amy [ you yelled at ] amy [ you kissed ] jared favorite... [ food ] food [ drink ] diet pepsi [ colour ] purple! [ album ] Switchfoot- Beautiful letdown [ shoes ] flip flops [ candy ] twix [ animal ] cougs! [ tv show ] that 70’s show, everwood, Gilmore girls… [ movie ] pirates, LOTR, Star Wars… [ dance ] the “white guy from WV dance” [ song ] Meant to live by switchfoot [ vegetable ] carrot [ fruit ] red grapes [ cartoon ] Veggie Tales are you....? [ understanding ] yeah, usually [ open-minded ] yeah i try [ arrogant ] i dunno [ insecure ] all the time [ interesting ] i like to think so [ random ] moo? [ hungry ] I already ate [ friendly ] yeah [ smart ] only when i want to [ moody ] heh [ childish ] hehe [ independent ] sometimes [ hard working ] when i wanna be [ organized ] lol, no [ emotionally stable ] yeah, usually [ shy ] sometimes [ difficult ] usually [ attractive ] it depends [ bored easily ] yes [ messy ] yah [ thirsty ] actually yes… *goes to get pop* [ responsible ] when I want to be [ obsessed ] sometimes [ angry ] not now [ sad ] not now [ happy ] yes [ hyper ] not really [ trusting ] yeah usually [ talkative ] when I want to be [ legal ] not to drink alcohol, but I wouldn’t even if I was… who do you want to. [ kill ] hmm… [ slap ] theres a lot on that list [ get really wasted with ] no one [ get high with ] no one [ tickle ] hehe J [ kiss ] Jared [ look like ] I don’t care [ talk to offline ] jared [ talk to online ] jared h a i r how many hair products do you use aside from shampoo?: none blow-dryer?: occasionally curling iron?: nope straightening iron?: no shampoo: VO5 Tangerine Tickle conditioner: VO5 at the moment, is your hair its natural color?: yes generally, is your hair nice to you?: no b e a u t y how many makeup products do you use?: few eyes: eyeliner occasionally face: nope lips: maybe some gloss are your nails painted right now?: toenails, but they’re chipped… how many skin products do you use?: bath and body works body crème and some other stuff from shopko face moisturizer?: no lotions?: see above   t h a t t i m e o f t h e m o n t h is it?: not currnetly do you keep track?: no, it never is the same do you usually get cramps?: almost always, sometimes worse than others what food gets you through PMS?: uh caffine? do you get bitchy during PMS? sometimes is your cycle the same as any of your friends? Yep, last year the entire female population of the band was basically on the same schedule, felt sorry for rees…   s h o p p i n g yeah, shopping rocks right?: if you have money have you shopped in the past week?: yah are you an impulse buyer?: occasionally can you decide on what to buy?: not usually who is your favorite shopping buddy?: my sister, I have discovered… b o y s gay/straight/bi?: straight do you have a crush?: my boyfriend how many boyfriends have you had?: two   u n d e r w e a r what kind do you like?: colourful do you like buying it?: sure, I go underwear shopping w/ patty and nikki which pair is your favorite?: uh… those I got from hot topic which bra is your favorite?: the purple one do you wear underwear to bed: yea... do you purposely expose your undies when you bend over: depends on who’s behind me *wink* t h i s / t h a t me/you: me aol/aim: aim cd/cassette: cd dvd/vcr: dvd radio/cd: cd slow dance/freak dance: slow dance jacket/coat: same thing leather/pleather: leather sparkles/bronze: sparkles sexy/hot: sexy car/truck: car civic/acura: ?? corvette/camero: ?? strong/weak: strong upset/pissed: upset tall/short: tall guys… but I’m short lunch/dinner: lunch abercrombie/hollister: neither gap/old navy: old navy nsync/bsb: neither britney/christina: neither love/lust: love inside/outside: depends lipstick/lipgloss: gloss nightime/daytime: nighttime () Your heritage: you name it… theres some there )( Your perfect pizza: sausage () Goal you'd like to achieve: playing first before I get out of here %^ Your thoughts first waking up: mm ^% Your best physical feature: eyes? %^ Your bedtime: Whenever. ^> Smoke: never <^ Cuss: I try not to. ^> Sing: I like to when I’m along in the car <^ Take a shower everyday: when I wake, up cant get through the day w/o feeling gross unless I do ^> Have a crush(es): on my boyfriend, if that counts <^ Want to go to college: I’m here ^> Like(d) high school: loved jr. and sr. years <^ Want to get married: eventually ^> Believe in yourself: I’m better at it now that I’ve basically said screw the world ^> Get along with your parent(s): most the time, now <^ Like thunderstorms: yep! ^> Play an instrument: trumpet -- Age you hope to be married: within the 20?s mid to late 20?s -- Numbers and Names of Children: the girl would Naomi Grace, and I don’t know about boys… probably one or two -- Describe your Dream Wedding: WHCC and a pretty white dress -- How do you want to die: In my sleep -- Where you want to go to college: I’m here, WSU -- What do you want to be when you grow up: teacher -- What country would you most like to visit: Europe or Australia… or maybe Africa… (In a guy/girl..) -- Best eye color? Blue… or brown on my guy J -- Best hair color? *shrug*. -- Short or long hair: NOT LONG -- height: tall -- Best weight: don matter -- Best articles of clothing: whatever -- Number of people I could trust with my life: I don’t know… more than I’d think -- Number of CDs that I own: 30ish, if you count whats on the computer -- Number of piercings: ears.. 2 -- Number of tattoos: I want one on my ankle -- Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?: a bunch. (fairs and band, mostly fairs) -- Number of scars on my body: uh, quite a few actually… It’s cause I’m a tomboy

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