i want no one i know to read this.... really, if you know me, or even if you don't... i donno, i feel like locking my diary sometimes...

but anyways...

yeah, me and jared, everything is fine and dandy, i love him, he loves me and i want to be with him more than anyone else in the world. but tehres one problem, i only get to see him when i go home... about once a month... if that.

which makes me extrememly sad... and exceptionally... yeah.

there are a couple of guys here who i'm starting to feel slightly attracted to... and that kinda bugs me, 'cause they are here and he isn't...

it sucks that the first time in my life i actually have a real boyfriend, it has to be so complicated...

damn, i love jared.... and i miss him like crazy.

crazy.

yeah, taht sums it up...

i think i need to lay down for a few minutes...

just to think about stuff...

<>< Julianne

bye bye diaryland - Monday, Nov. 08, 2004
shit - Wednesday, Nov. 03, 2004
my eye hurts - Tuesday, Oct. 05, 2004
no phone, no internet - Sunday, Aug. 22, 2004
wtf mate? - Sunday, Aug. 08, 2004